KNOWING

i was born “KNOWING”

i knew how to sing and sang on pitch before i can remember

i knew how to engage people of all ages in conversation as soon as i could talk

i knew the way into the kingdom of God and completely embraced it by the age of six

            for every time i fell, literally and figuratively, i knew why

BUT

for all the ways that “KNOWING” made my life easier, blessed, different, special

there were 1000 ways it made it harder

i’ve wasted and squandered countless hours

            on being a “know-it-all”

            on crying – fighting – pouting because i didn’t “know what to do”

            on covering up a myriad of things because

                        i was afraid it … i would become “known”

KNOWING – instinctively understanding …

            what to do – what to say – where to go – how to react – when to leave – when to stay

A submitted KNOWING

            Blesses Me – Blesses Others – Blesses God

An UN-submitted KNOWING IS sin!

God in His gracious, loving, patient way is showing me, teaching me, allowing me to discover ways that my “KNOWING” is wrong … even a kind of “UN- KNOWING” or “NOT KNOWING”. He’s revealed Himself, His KNOWING, as sufficient, reliable, and trustworthy.

Now … today …

                                                 i live in the land of “i don’t know”

                                        amongst a people who say “you know”

                                                in a world that is “dying to know”

and yet …

            in the midst of NOT KNOWING

i can rest quietly, content, and confident

                                    because i know  …

i am KNOWN