“How are
you failing to die?” My friend Eva was so frustrated when the Siri on her phone
texted that message instead of “How are you feeling?” to a friend who had just
been in a hit a run accident. In real life we have plenty of opportunities to
die but God in His great mercy has numbered our days and so death narrowly misses
us.
But when I heard
those words it got me to thinking about the words of the apostles in the New
Testament:
1 Peter
2:24 He Himself bore our sins in His body on the tree, so that we might die
to sins and live for righteousness; by His wounds you have been healed.
Colossians
3:10-17 Since you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things
above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden
with Christ in God. When Christ who is your life appears, then you will
also appear with Him in glory. Put to death therefore whatever belongs to your
earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires, and greed,
which is idolatry. Because of these, the wrath of God is coming. You used to
walk in these things in the life you once lived. But now you must rid yourselves
of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language
from your lips. Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old
self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in
knowledge in the image of its Creator … but Christ is all and is in all.
Therefore as God’s chosen people holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion,
kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive
whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord
forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love … let the peace of Christ
rule in your hearts … you were called to peace and be thankful. Let the word of
Christ dwell in your richly as you teach and admonish one another with all
wisdom and as you sing psalms, hymns, spiritual songs with gratitude in your
hearts to God. Do all … in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the
Father through Him.
So I ask
myself … “How are you failing to die?” or rather, in view of God’s great
mercies “Why are you failing to die? Are God’s kindnesses not good enough for you?
Was His death for you not enough? Is the life you have in Him not exciting
enough? Do you really need your old self? When you reach the end of your days
will you be happy with what you’ve done? Will you be satisfied with the words
and actions you kept and the ones you gave away?”
Oh God,
please forgive me. Make me aware of the areas in my life where I’m not dying to
myself; where I’m not living for you. Purify my heart, make it ever true; purify
my heart may I be like You! Oh grant that the words of my mouth and the
meditations of my heart would be acceptable and pleasing to You, O God, my Lord
and my Redeemer. Help me to NOT fail to die!